Dear Neil

today was my 31st birthday, Neil.
today, i was going to shake your hand & you where going to desperately want to work with me.
its true.
or at least. it would've been.
instead Neil,
i met fairies
& fireflies
&ballerinas
&ninjas
& knights
i walked candle lit paths
i watched actors on stilts (stilts!) tell a tale about a girl who ate the night.


i ate Thai, Neil,
i didn't think I'd like it but i really did...

i turned thirty one Neil, thirty one.
maybe next year, Neil. will be 'our' year.
i say that so full of hope Neil, its really quite sad.
but maybe.
you never know.
oh?
& Neil, ...?
thanks.